Monday, January 1, 2018

New Year's Reflections

2017 is behind us, and I can't say I'm sorry to see it go. Not even mentioning the political storm happening around the world, it's been a year when I've lost people and almost lost people, and each of those events has been accompanied by a hailstorm of reflections. The year started when a friend slipped on ice a few days before Christmas ('16) and was in a coma for weeks, and even now he's struggling to do the most basic things. I've watched my brother's family deal with my niece's cancer, I cried when a childhood friend died, and again when another told her #metoo story, something I had suspected when we were kids, but never knew for certain. And I was devastated when another lost her daughter to a drug OD just the week before Christmas.

I don't know if it's my age, but after each tragedy, I've reflected on the past and my relationship with each person; our interactions and shared history. I don't know if I remember things differently than they really were, or if I'm looking at them from a distance and seeing what I missed the first time, but that old adage "If I could go back, but know what I know now," seems so apt. No regrets, but yes...there are things I would do differently.

I've found myself during these last weeks embracing those around me, making sure they know I care. Because I'm not sure I did back then. No, that's wrong. Let me restate-- Because I didn't back then. Whether it was because I was unsure, or simply naive, I will never know. I think probably it was a bit of both. I look ahead to the coming year and I wish I could be optimistic, but I know my niece isn't going to get better. My Australian friend's daughter isn't going to get better, neither the father nor brother of one of my close friends will make it to 2019. That's it-that's how it is.

My job isn't secure, my car is ready to give up the ghost, and we need a new roof desperately (hopefully it'll make it to spring). But... the husband and I are going to celebrate our 30th anniversary this April, and if things go as planned, we're going to do that at Walt Disney World and I hope to publish a book or two this year. So there are things to look forward to, goals to set and work towards. So, I wish everyone of my virtual "friends" a Happy New Year...

...and please know, I value you all! The world is so big and so complicated, but it's nice to know we all have things in common. It's nice to not feel quite so alone.  

Monday, December 25, 2017

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas, all! The kids are both here and we even got a little snow. I'm going to spend the day cooking and listening to "Little Drummer Boy" on repeat. Hope everyone has a wonderful day!

Thursday, December 7, 2017

Saturday, October 28, 2017

Laughter Is The Best Medicine

Going in a slightly different direction this week, mainly because I'm in that change of weather funk and the news tends to trigger my anger and depression. What a world we live in...

Monday, October 9, 2017

Summer 2017

 I tend to take lots of pictures and download them onto my computer, where they are never seen again. So I'm thinking I might start doing a monthly "round up" of some of my favorites. Here are a few from my summer. The "people" pictures I save for Facebook, tagging those involved. So what I have left is apparently "nature" pictures, for the most part. And some art I bought. And one of the numerous tree frogs that began life in the swimming pool we didn't use this summer. 

Sunday, October 8, 2017

History in Memes and Tweets

It really was a shitty week: the kind where I had to cut my time on social media for my own mental health. 

Monday, September 25, 2017

The Difference Between Cats and Dogs (or is that, Women and Men?)

 I love when this kind of stuff pops up on Tumblr. I think at some level, we're all aware of things like this, the differences between men and women. I suppose most of it is socialized into us, but I wonder how much of it is also simply genetic. I know there have been brain studies that show different parts of the brain "lighting up" according to gender, and my psychology side is always fascinated and wants to know why it happens, not just that it happened. "Nature vs Nurture" is one of my favorite studies! (I know, I'm a bit weird.) I really should have gone into research instead of studying counseling and child development. It just didn't dawn on me when I was 22.