Saturday, July 17, 2010

Current State of Affairs

My world is falling apart right now, by which I mean that I have so much to take care of that I'm becoming paralyzed. The list is so long that I don't know what to do first. This isn't the first time this has happened, and what normally happens is I will do whatever has to be done in the next day or two as each thing comes due, and eventually I should work through it all. It always works out, but this time feels worse for some reason. I think my nerves are so frayed at this point that my mind has quit working. I keep screwing up at work. Not good. I've suffered from depression in the past and a few years back I started having panic attacks so bad I could hardly leave the house. I ended up on medication for a few years. I don't want to end up back there again. I know time takes care of things, but I just don't want to have to wade through it. I would prefer just to pass by it! Do you think if I just ignore it all, it will go away!?


Beth said..., I don't think it will all just go away. sorry. :/

I know for me, I HAVE to make lists....(and then I usually forget the list!)

but it helps me to see that I have crossed things off the list as i get them done..makes me feel like I've accomplished something that day, even if it's only "check the mail box"!!!!

hang in there girl.

S'A said...

Well, I took every thing one at a time and somehow have managed to get through most of it. Some good (family reunion) and some just annoying (business expo--why did I sign up for it?). Sometimes I hate being a responsible adult!